Tuesday, April 30, 2024

365 Days

How bad do you want to improve YOUR life? That’s what I write on my palm every morning. 

 

 


I want to improve my life. But the question is, how bad am I willing to improve it? How bad do I want to be healthier? How bad do I want to requalify faster for the Boston Marathon? How bad do I want to learn how to cook? How bad do you want to learn how to take medicine to better my health? The answer to the questions will likely shock you: 

NOT. BAD. ENOUGH.

 

It’s the truth. Right now, I don’t want those things bad enough yet. The key word: yet. I’m already improving my life little by little. I do a little workout and stretch daily each weekday. I’ve cut back on my sugar intake. I continue to read daily. I’m proud of those routines and habits I’ve built, plus many other mentioned. I’m seeing the gains already. 

 

But… I can be even better.  That’s the hard truth only I know in my heart. Don’t worry, I’m not the workaholic I used to be. (That in of itself was unhealthy, despite my best intention.) I still have a huge, sweet tooth. I cave into my impulsive buying more lately.  I don’t get enough sleep and it can be very noticeable.

 

Very few people know about my heart condition. It’s still something haven’t seen a doctor for it in awhile. To be honest, I couldn’t tell you when I’ve last seen a doctor for anything non feet related. One of my friends told me recently how concerned they were for me because all it takes is one ache and who knows where I’ll be next. It really set a grave reality. 

The second we are born the seconds tick down until we are called to God. (Sorry for the reminder.) After I just crossed another birthday milestone, I’ve realized I’m not getting any younger and it’s time to get a little more serious. I also know very soon I’m going to make some massive changes (I like to call them upgrades) to my life that I’m very excited for. (Stay tuned!) A few days ago my yearly clock started ticking. Tick…tick… tick…

 

There are 31,536,000 seconds are in one year. I am making my plan right now to make sure in one year I’m in a better place mentally, physically, and spiritually. I like where I’m at now, but not even close to being satisfied. (Heck, I just ran a 1:21:55 half marathon, a time I haven’t ran in 4+ years, and yet I’m determined to knock it down another minute or two.) My body feels better. I’m mentally slightly better more two months ago. But… I’m not satisfied and won’t be until I reach my bigger goals. I can be even better, and I want to be. I remind myself what my end goals are and surround myself with people that will be help me get there. Sooner than later, I’ll be moving with the hope the move also contribute positively my end goal 365 days away. 


Consistent healthy habits are going to change my life these next 365 days and I’m excited for you to join me on this ride. Never Give Up! Let’s go!

Monday, March 4, 2024

Dear Jordan

Dear Jordan

Today you both ended a friendship
You both mutually agreed to block another

It hurts
Almost 3 years
Endless ups
Very few downs
Laughs
Tears
Smiles
Nudges
Handholding
Kisses
Naps
Calls
Texts
Hikes
Sports
Beaches
Disney
Facetimes

It's not what you both wanted
But what you both have needed
For a long time

I was there for her
She was there for me

You fell in love with her
You loved her sons as your own
You loved her family as your own
You prayed for her siblings

You learned so much from her
You grew so much from her
You smiled so much from her
You loved so much from her

Today hurts
Love hurts

You're allowed to feel sad
You're allowed to feel pain
You're allowed to feel confused
You're allowed to move on

You've been asking everyday
How bad do you want to improve your life?
Where do you want be 5 years from now?

You've made changes
Accepted a new job
Scouted out new apartments
Changed your morning routine
Started running more
Overcome so much in 5 months

You should be proud!

Today you're awaken
The new clock has started
You never look back
The race is long
Take your time
There's no rush
You're allowed to walk
It'll be easy at times
It'll be hard at times
Your fans will be there when you look & ask
Don't forget to drink water and enjoy the moment


Look back on this day as the starting line

You have so much to live for
You have so much support
You have done the best you can
God is with you

So...I'll ask again:
How bad do you want to improve your life?

One more thing...I'm proud of you!
I'm proud of who you've become!
I'm looking forward to who you will become!

You should be proud! Keep going! YOU GOT THIS!


- Jordan




Wednesday, February 28, 2024

Awaken

I remember it vividly. I was falling from a stairwell. I tried to my best to warn people it would happen. I knew it that moment everything I knew and loved was over. Before my fate was sealed, my alarm went off. I was awakened.




 

            Thankfully that sequence was just a dream. Have you ever had one of those dreams? Isn’t it a relief when you wake up from them? This one was as real as it gets. It felt like an out of body experience. Never had I been more relieved to be awake.

 

            I immediately got to work on my morning routine: devotions, pushups, stretches, and morning reading, drinking water. I remember being extra thankful throughout that day and the days that followed. But none of what I was doing felt enough after my mythical experience.

 

            I started thinking about how I was living in my life currently. The closest ones to me know I’m not settled. I know in my heart I need to change and I’m ready to. I have bigger plans and I’m eager to see what my future holds in the coming months. But… before that dream, I hadn’t started preparing for my future. That dream has awakened me. 

 

            Since then, I have gotten rid of more items at my apartment and in my classroom that were collecting dust bunnies for over 4 years. This’ll help me for my future move. I created my resume, started running more, paid for fun events I’ll attend in the future, and I’ve had two interviews. This’ll help me decide what job I want in the future if I want to make changes. Ironically, I been awake more as well. 

 

            I don’t have time to waste. My future starts with what I’m doing today. I’m reading more, running more, studying more, and living my life for me more! It’s been a great month of learning and growing! I am awaken! 



Sunday, January 28, 2024

Adding & Subtracting

Let’s start off with some math! Are you ready?! What is 2 + 2? FOUR is absolutely correct! Good job! What about 45- 16? It’s 29! You took a little longer on that one. I bet you weren’t expecting to do math when reading a blog …or maybe you did when you read my title.


 


 

This year I’ve seen more friends share their “Ins and Outs” for 2024. The ins are priorities people are going to focus on more or keep in their lives. The outs are things people are getting rid of or do less of. This got me thinking about my own. This year I’m expecting big changes and putting mine in my first blog of 2024 will hold me accountable. I love being a math and science this school year. With that spirit in mind, I’m going call mine: adding and subtracting!

 

Adding: Reading

 

            This is one I’ve been doing consistently for years, but never enough of it. In 2022 & 2023 I tied for 40 books read. This is the year I exceed that mark. I’ve added reading as little as 1-5 pages as part of my morning routine, and most nights read more before bed. Now, I love reading in the mornings and I helps me feel a little more successful!

 

Subtracting: Screen time

 

            Raise your hand if your phone rarely leaves your side. Raise your hand if you log 7+ hours on it daily. I’m guilty. If you are too, and if you have an iPhone, you can actually go into the settings, then type screen time, pick any app, and set a time limit on that app to limit your screen time. It’s that easy! I just started doing this for YouTube and Instagram. …I also moved my phone away from me when I go to bed, so I must get out of bed and turn off my alarm. It’s been painful, but it’s working for getting my day started immediately! 

 

Adding: Eating fruit

 

            I’m a picky eater. Scratch that, I’m becoming a healthy eater! (Growth Mindset!) Somehow I’ve been able to get away eating unhealthy for decades and still able to run extremely fast. As part of my new routine, I’m also eating a fruit before I leave or when I get home. To help this create this new habit, I’m starting to buy less sugary chips and candy. 

 

Subtracting: following people I don’t enjoy (anymore) on social media

 

            I’ve had social media teacher friends I’ve followed for since I started teaching for almost a decade. They’re my friends and teacher heroes. For some of them, they’re prioritizing growing their business with more posts with ads and less about teaching ideas or have left teaching altogether. That’s great for them. They should doing it! In December, I started unfollowing many whom no longer serve a purpose in my career or my friendship. Follow people you want to follow. Unfollow people, even if they’re still following you, who don’t add meaning to your life. 

 

Adding: Drinking more water

 

            You might be catching a trend. Jordan is trying to live a healthier life, so just categorize these adds as “healthy lifestyle”. I can’t. I want each one to be individualized. The truth is I used to drink plenty of water …until I moved to Florida. Water here taste different and as a result, I stopped drinking water almost altogether. I know for a fact I’ve gone weeks without water, substituting it for Gatorade and soda. To make it a prioritize, it’s on my daily habit checklist along with fruit. More importantly both are the first things I see in my fridge because I moved my sodas and sports drinks to the side. Why didn’t I do this sooner?! 

 

Subtracting: my current apartment

 

            Minus the incredible view, it’s been challenging to stay here, especially after 2023. I don’t feel safe here or prioritized. To my perspective, it seems like our apartment is getting dirtier and unsafe by the day. I talk to my friends so much about what I want an apartment to feel and be like. When I see other apartments in certain locations, I get excited and instantly happier. I know income plays a big factor. Fingers crossed I can move! 

 

Adding: leaving when my contractual work hours stop

 

           Even with my new routine that adds an addition 20-30 minutes of personal tranquilly time to my morning, I still get to school 30-40 minutes before my contractual hours. And this year, I only teach math and science I don't have as much on my plate (most days) so it means I'm going to prioritize leaving when my contractual hours ends 20-30 minutes after the final bell. I do a great job using my time wisely when I'm at school, so why not use my personal time wisely too!

 

Subtracting: Settling for less than my dream

 

            I want to change my life for the better to achieve my wildest dreams. Because of my career, naysayers have said I’ll never live in a nicer house, upscale apartment, or make enough money to live comfortably. I strongly disagree with them. I want to change my life so badly. I write this daily. Their doubts add fuel my fire to keep chasing my happiness! I believe this year, I’ll be moving in that direction, even if it’s slowing or just adding a few pieces.

 

Adding: new Florida experiences

 

            Remember how I shared how rare I went to the beach in my first 4 years in Florida? Then I prioritized it. This year I’ve created a list of things in Florida that I still haven’t done that I want to do. That list includes, eating at Waffle House, seeing the Everglades, going to a Buccaneers game, riding in a Hot Air Balloon, and many more! Having first experiences by myself or friends can create lots of discomfort, but that’s also what makes them rewarding! Every year is different and I’m getting better at seeking out experiences. I’m excited to see what I’ll cross off my list!

 

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What do you want to add and subtract in your life? Maybe you want to add more volunteer time at your church. Maybe you’re trying to get rid of an addiction you’ve never quit. Whatever it is, THIS IS YOUR YEAR! Write on a paper or search the web for a habit list. Whatever you do, don’t settle, keep growing, add things that improve your life, and subtract things and people that don’t. If you do, I promise you, you’ll have the BEST 2024 EVER!


P.S. This was my 50th straight month of blogging! 🎉